Trust the Process

trust-the-process

As a Filipino, it is no surprise that basketball is my default sport. In fact, I was in the varsity team from grade school to high school. But despite that, I was still getting heavier and heavier. I remember in 3rd year HS when I ballooned to 225 lbs. Though I was on the heavy side, I was very comfortable moving around because I’ve been big my whole life. Aside from basketball, I tried running, boxing and your traditional gym. None of it seemed to fuel my willingness to lose weight and I got depressed. I continued binge eating and eventually, I hit rock bottom in 2015. I was 251 lbs and my clothes could no longer fit. I was so afraid of the scale that the only time I see my weight is during the annual physical exam.

Last October, I found out that CFMNL was opening a box in Don Antonio which was close to where I lived. At first I was very skeptical because from what I’ve read, crossfit is dangerous and not sustainable. Yes, I wanted to lose weight but I wanted to make sure I knew what I was getting myself into. Fortunately, one of my neighbors was a part time owner and he encouraged me to try it.  I told him that I was so tired of being fat, lazy and unhealthy that I needed to do something already. So one Saturday, I gave it a try, nothing to lose right? After the warm-ups, I swear I wanted to throw up. When the session ended, I was just glad I survived. And this was only bootcamp. The whole week was a nightmare because my body was so sore. I realized how unfit I truly was but that did not stop me from going back. The first month was a struggle and it was so hard to move around. I took it both as a wakeup call and a challenge to ?regain fitness ?. I made a commitment to myself that I will work out harder than my previous session and eventually, it paid off.

By the end of the 2015, I was able to lose 10 lbs but more than that, I was less insecure about myself. My clothes started to fit again but more than that, I felt stronger and more confident. Day in and day out, our coaches would push us and recognize our efforts. On top of that, you have your box-mates who are very encouraging and as determined as you are.  Not only do you work out with these people, you will consider them family, because after all, you are together almost every day. The last 4 months have been crazy and I am thankful to my old self for deciding to join CF MNL. Now I understand why they say it is contagious. Not only are you getting in shape but you develop discipline and friendships in the process. CF MNL has taught me to trust the process. I am no longer in a hurry to lose all the weight as I am enjoying every single day of my progress. Aside from working out, I’ve incorporated better eating habits. I’ve stayed away from fast food and I’ve kept track of my daily intake through my food journal. Nutrition is also very important in Crossfit so you have to make sure that you eat the right meals in preparation for the workouts.

When you are inside the box, you belong to something bigger. I think that is the thing I love most about Crossfit.  Yes, workouts are mostly individual but because of the unity that you build in the community, you will never feel alone.

Currently, I’ve lost over 25 lbs since the day I joined and I have not felt this good in a long time. For those who feel that it’s too late, trust me, it’s never too late! You just have to want it and do something about it. So to the old Jay, again, thank you for deciding to ?#‎getafterit?.